I rest my rear on the sun-baked ground of the scorching plateau. Staring out into the horizon, I see the invaders marching off in a slow, downcast stroll, as their heads hung low from the defeat they had just received. The heat of the sun intensifies as i slowly squint my eyes until they are completely closed. I let my physical feelings and thoughts overpower me. Soon, my idle mind begins to drift, into the vast spaces of my memories.
My belly was exposed to the sun as i hung all four of my paws in the air. Dehydration made my tongue languorously hang out; I took short breaths to keep my heart going. Being born into the pride meant that i was the luckiest of all cubs; I had always had a silver spoon in my mouth. In moments, mom came up to me, dragging a juicy piece of baby gazelle meat and dropped it onto the ground next to me. Such were my living conditions that I even got to choose which parts i wanted to eat, and left the scraps for the hyenas. And when i was done, I quenched my thirst from the watering hole just meters away. Mom told me I was born to be a king so I feared no predators.
However, as I was munching down into my share of the tender meat, Little Sis' joined me. "There goes my food", i thought as she sprinted towards my lunch. She was my only real competition when it came to food. When the other memebers of the pride tried to take my food, mom would come to the rescue and save my meal. As a cub, I did not understand these complex things, why my mom needed to protect me, why other animals ran away from us, and why the other males were fighting with other strange males. When an epic battle took place, Dad would use me to distract the invaders because of my speed. I was really plaing catching rather than running for my life. Like mom said, I was born to be a king, so why would I be afraid?
Yes, why would should I be afraid? So I walked wherever I wanted to - and on that day it was beyond the territory of the pride. The savannah seemed to completely change; it suddenly seemed darker, and every animal would successfully scare me off, especially those colosal elephants, that towered two million feet above my little body. Little Sis tagged along and we soon found ourselves hiding under a fallen tree branch. And then, out of a corner, came one of those invaders. He had not noticed us, though we did.
He was a furtive animal with a face that bore the scars of many battles. Those were attractive features on a male lion, so much so that my sister was absolutely infatuated with him. What a better time to exercise my "kingly" authority than to go and talk to him now! I conceitedly matched towards him, for upon noticing me, he pounced upon me and almost crushed me with his body weight. Little Sis' came out screaming and begged him to release me. No such luck. He opened his jaws to expose his huge canine teeth and I braced myself for what would be my first feeling of real agony.
A thunderous roar echoed down the savannah and the mae released his grip on me, petrified by the roar. I managed to slip away, when I saw where the roar came from. It was Dad. He stood up tall with his back arched and his mane revealing his power. Now that was the majesty of the king! He leaped in front of me to shield me and gave me a powerful swipe at the other male. One more scar to add to the collection on his face! It was thus taht i realized how naive I was. It was life and death out here and it was no child's play. Dad was appalled at out mischief and we got what was coming our way - harsh punishment.
Evidently, it was the innocene of children that made me do those things, an innocence that has long since left me. Now, on the sun-baked ground of the scorcing plateau, I sit as the head of my pride, as the king of the savannah, in all the majesty and glory of a lion. I sit and guard here to make sure other cubs have the silver-spoon fed, gazelle-lunch childhood I had, so that from that childhood, they would rise up to be where I am today. My mind came back to the present moment as I slowly opened my eyes. A small grin came across my face as I saw two curious cubs venturing beyond my domain. I got up and walked in their direction, knowing what they would get themselves into. What a childhood they will have too!
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
Family
The arctic blizzard blew hard against the ever-enduring male. Ice and snow kept beating his back yet he would not succumb to the climate. All his life, he had been waiting for this event; it was the only purpose of his mortal existence. The frail two-week-old egg rested on his feet and he protected it from the elements using his belly fat. The blubber he had kept it warm. With his body temperature dropping rapidly, he huddled up with the rest of the males; it was the only way he could keep warm. The egg was growing fast within the grasp of his feet, all he needed to do now was to wait.
In a diverse and magnificent kingdom, not many would stick together and mate for life. Yet, his species did it. In such an environment, it was the only way to ensure survival of the species. Because that was what life was created for - to ensure the continuation of its kind in reproduction.
Parenting an unborn chick was not easy, especially since his mate was away hunting for two months and the chick would hatch soon. When it does break through its frail casing to peer out into the 'white world', only he could feed it, with whatever food was left to regurgitate.
A month had passed since the bundle of joy had been passed onto him, and now his effort was duly rewarded as the tiny beak burst forth through the shell and looked up at daddy's face. One could even say he teared when he say his baby. However, his troubles had not ended, not yet. The female mother had not yet returned and it was all up to him to feed the chick. As he summoned up all his might to bring back up the food from his stomach, he worried there would not be enough for the chick to survive. Already, the other males had succumbed to the arctic hunger and abandoned their chicks so they could feed themselves. A mere thirthy seconds was all it took for the chick to die if it were left exposed to the cold. But he was stronger than that. He was not going to let his baby die. He mustered all his remaining strength and tucked the chick under his belly. He was just all too lucky that there were no predators other than the arctic ice. He was not in any way strong enough to fend off anything else.
For two months now, male and female had been separated and their hearts yearned for each other. Both of them set on a single conquest - to raise the precious baby they had. Back in the waters, the female did not know her baby had hatched, but she suspected it. She knew she had to get back quick, or her partner would surely perish. The greedy leopard seal sat on the ice and waited, never failing to seize an opportunity for a meal. She however, did not care. She had to get back, never mind the danger to herself. In perfect synchronization, the females lunged themselves into the air, onto the ice and quickly scrambled across it to safety. Some had not made it; they fell prey to the seal. But that is just how it is - the circle of life.
She scrambled back inward to the ice where her partner was. Full of energy she had gathered from the fish in her stomach, she screamed out across the ice, calling to her partner. At last, after two long months, the male heard her triumphant call. Using what was left of him, he called back and soon they were re-united. He cuddled her using his beak and introduced her to their chick. The reunion did not last long though, the male was too weak from starvation to rejoice just yet. He passed the chick to the female, being careful not to touch the ice, and joining the other males, waddled back to the waters.
The process of "sharing the responsibility" is carried out many times, till the chick is old enough to learn to hunt for itself. Then the family would migrate back to the warm seas. It is a long and arduous task, yet why do Emperor Penguins still do it? That is what they were created to do. One could say it was a command from God even; "And God said, go forth and multiply". The penguins know the value of life because each day they put it on the line. It is survival. Yet they choose to do it together - male, female and chick - because they are one. They are family.
In a diverse and magnificent kingdom, not many would stick together and mate for life. Yet, his species did it. In such an environment, it was the only way to ensure survival of the species. Because that was what life was created for - to ensure the continuation of its kind in reproduction.
Parenting an unborn chick was not easy, especially since his mate was away hunting for two months and the chick would hatch soon. When it does break through its frail casing to peer out into the 'white world', only he could feed it, with whatever food was left to regurgitate.
A month had passed since the bundle of joy had been passed onto him, and now his effort was duly rewarded as the tiny beak burst forth through the shell and looked up at daddy's face. One could even say he teared when he say his baby. However, his troubles had not ended, not yet. The female mother had not yet returned and it was all up to him to feed the chick. As he summoned up all his might to bring back up the food from his stomach, he worried there would not be enough for the chick to survive. Already, the other males had succumbed to the arctic hunger and abandoned their chicks so they could feed themselves. A mere thirthy seconds was all it took for the chick to die if it were left exposed to the cold. But he was stronger than that. He was not going to let his baby die. He mustered all his remaining strength and tucked the chick under his belly. He was just all too lucky that there were no predators other than the arctic ice. He was not in any way strong enough to fend off anything else.
For two months now, male and female had been separated and their hearts yearned for each other. Both of them set on a single conquest - to raise the precious baby they had. Back in the waters, the female did not know her baby had hatched, but she suspected it. She knew she had to get back quick, or her partner would surely perish. The greedy leopard seal sat on the ice and waited, never failing to seize an opportunity for a meal. She however, did not care. She had to get back, never mind the danger to herself. In perfect synchronization, the females lunged themselves into the air, onto the ice and quickly scrambled across it to safety. Some had not made it; they fell prey to the seal. But that is just how it is - the circle of life.
She scrambled back inward to the ice where her partner was. Full of energy she had gathered from the fish in her stomach, she screamed out across the ice, calling to her partner. At last, after two long months, the male heard her triumphant call. Using what was left of him, he called back and soon they were re-united. He cuddled her using his beak and introduced her to their chick. The reunion did not last long though, the male was too weak from starvation to rejoice just yet. He passed the chick to the female, being careful not to touch the ice, and joining the other males, waddled back to the waters.
The process of "sharing the responsibility" is carried out many times, till the chick is old enough to learn to hunt for itself. Then the family would migrate back to the warm seas. It is a long and arduous task, yet why do Emperor Penguins still do it? That is what they were created to do. One could say it was a command from God even; "And God said, go forth and multiply". The penguins know the value of life because each day they put it on the line. It is survival. Yet they choose to do it together - male, female and chick - because they are one. They are family.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
The Coming Out Process - The Cast Model.
So, I was YouTube-ing during my free time and like i said before one can find a million and one gay vids there. I found one that is very informative and thought i'd share. It's called "The Coming Out Process" and it uses something called the cast model, which shows you which stage u might be in, in terms of coming out, and what to expect in the next stage.
Stage 1 : Identity Confusion
This is a stage where u ask yourself questions like, "could i be gay" or "is homosexuality relevant to me". In this stage there could be a lot of denial and confusion and you could generally avoid information/behaviour of gays and lesbians. You might deny any sexual experiences as relevant, and rather just blame it on being drunk or experimenting.
Stage 2 : Identity Comparison
In this stage people contemplate the possibility that they could be gay. They might identify differences between them and their heterosexual peers which may lead to alienation. They may also feel grief from what they think they may be giving up by embracing their sexual orientation. They may just brush it off as something temporary though.
Stage 3 : Identity Tolerance
In this stage they accept the probability of being gay. In this stage they may try to decrease any social alienation by seeking out other gays/lesbians.
Stage 4 : Identity Acceptance
In this stage they accept rather than just tolerate a homosexual self image. In this stage there is increased contact with gay and lesbian community/culture and possibly less and less contact with the heterosexual culture. In this stage they try to bring their private life and their public life closer together by selectively coming out to people. They become more comfortable being seen with groups of gays and lesbians in public.
Stage 5 : Identity Pride
This stage is really an outward stage where people will think they have to let people know. They will become immersed in gay/lesbian culture and even less association with the heterosexual community from a political and social viewpoint, seperating the world into gay being 'good' and straight being 'bad' - possibly developing a hatred towards hetrosexism. They'll identify gay culture as their sole source of support so they'll have all gay friends etc.
Stage 6 : Identity Synthesis
This is probably the ultimate stage you wanna be in. People in this stage would have developed a more holistic view, defining themselves more completely, rather than just in terms of sexual orientation. There will be a decreased intensity of anger towards hetrosexism and allow their trust in them to build. They will feel comfortable moving out into the world and not define it based on sexual orientation.
Credits to robmuch and his video "The Coming Out Process"
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Though this is very informative, i don't think one should believe that this is exactly how a homosexual should live his life, rather it just being a model to tell them where they are or where they could be heading. After all, we all lead different lives with different circumstances. So with all this in mind, its time i asked;
what stage are you in?
Stage 1 : Identity Confusion
This is a stage where u ask yourself questions like, "could i be gay" or "is homosexuality relevant to me". In this stage there could be a lot of denial and confusion and you could generally avoid information/behaviour of gays and lesbians. You might deny any sexual experiences as relevant, and rather just blame it on being drunk or experimenting.
Stage 2 : Identity Comparison
In this stage people contemplate the possibility that they could be gay. They might identify differences between them and their heterosexual peers which may lead to alienation. They may also feel grief from what they think they may be giving up by embracing their sexual orientation. They may just brush it off as something temporary though.
Stage 3 : Identity Tolerance
In this stage they accept the probability of being gay. In this stage they may try to decrease any social alienation by seeking out other gays/lesbians.
Stage 4 : Identity Acceptance
In this stage they accept rather than just tolerate a homosexual self image. In this stage there is increased contact with gay and lesbian community/culture and possibly less and less contact with the heterosexual culture. In this stage they try to bring their private life and their public life closer together by selectively coming out to people. They become more comfortable being seen with groups of gays and lesbians in public.
Stage 5 : Identity Pride
This stage is really an outward stage where people will think they have to let people know. They will become immersed in gay/lesbian culture and even less association with the heterosexual community from a political and social viewpoint, seperating the world into gay being 'good' and straight being 'bad' - possibly developing a hatred towards hetrosexism. They'll identify gay culture as their sole source of support so they'll have all gay friends etc.
Stage 6 : Identity Synthesis
This is probably the ultimate stage you wanna be in. People in this stage would have developed a more holistic view, defining themselves more completely, rather than just in terms of sexual orientation. There will be a decreased intensity of anger towards hetrosexism and allow their trust in them to build. They will feel comfortable moving out into the world and not define it based on sexual orientation.
Credits to robmuch and his video "The Coming Out Process"
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Though this is very informative, i don't think one should believe that this is exactly how a homosexual should live his life, rather it just being a model to tell them where they are or where they could be heading. After all, we all lead different lives with different circumstances. So with all this in mind, its time i asked;
what stage are you in?
Saturday, October 11, 2008
5N2 '07 / 5N2 '08?
BBQ's are very typical if u ask me. The same stuff always happens! People struggling to start a fire, too much food left over, three people fanning one pit, etc etc, blah blah blah, watever watever. Nonetheless, a bunch of ex-classmates gathered at one and it was really a chance to see em again.
They really haven't changed at all in character - its still the same people I once knew, though they physically look different (no one more than haikel and chia how!).
Wei Leong popped a question to me that made me think. He asked me "Which do you prefer, 5N2 2007 or 5N2 2008?" - a tough to answer question especially since most that surrounded me were 5N2 2007 peeps. I answered honestly, "5N2 2008". Wei Leong replied in his oh-so-usual way - "wa... ajmal i'm so disappointed in you." - lol.
The fact is that as time goes by we all move on and live different lives. Especially so when you leave secondary school, where you start being independent and there are millions of paths to choose from. I chose to retain, while most left. And as such, i have let myself move on from the attachment to my old classmates and drowning myself in self-pity (that they are all starting new lives and i'm here on my own blah blah blah). Furtheremore, it was my current classmates and teachers that helped me pick myself up at the beggining of the year, not my ex-classmates/teachers.
I don't think i need to justify my choice of "5N2 2008". Just because we like our new lives does not mean we like the people in our old life any less. 5N2 2007 will always be in my memories and they will always be my buddies (as long as they want to), but that don't mean i dont like 5N2 2008 either - in fact i am happier with it, thus my choice.
Buddies are buddies regardless of the choices they make. They'll be my buddies as long as they want to.
Cheers to 5N2 '07 and all the people/memories that come with it!
They really haven't changed at all in character - its still the same people I once knew, though they physically look different (no one more than haikel and chia how!).
Wei Leong popped a question to me that made me think. He asked me "Which do you prefer, 5N2 2007 or 5N2 2008?" - a tough to answer question especially since most that surrounded me were 5N2 2007 peeps. I answered honestly, "5N2 2008". Wei Leong replied in his oh-so-usual way - "wa... ajmal i'm so disappointed in you." - lol.
The fact is that as time goes by we all move on and live different lives. Especially so when you leave secondary school, where you start being independent and there are millions of paths to choose from. I chose to retain, while most left. And as such, i have let myself move on from the attachment to my old classmates and drowning myself in self-pity (that they are all starting new lives and i'm here on my own blah blah blah). Furtheremore, it was my current classmates and teachers that helped me pick myself up at the beggining of the year, not my ex-classmates/teachers.
I don't think i need to justify my choice of "5N2 2008". Just because we like our new lives does not mean we like the people in our old life any less. 5N2 2007 will always be in my memories and they will always be my buddies (as long as they want to), but that don't mean i dont like 5N2 2008 either - in fact i am happier with it, thus my choice.
Buddies are buddies regardless of the choices they make. They'll be my buddies as long as they want to.
Cheers to 5N2 '07 and all the people/memories that come with it!
He's willing to take me! (thanks for your support)
I am practically marvelled and shocked at how many people are rooting for me to succeed in achieving my aspirations - from my closest buds like marr and ky, to the not-so-close ones, from the teachers and even the VP! I really wanna thank you guys for the support; sometimes its really all that keeps me fighting. All these people backing me is just yet another reason for me to strive to achieve what I want to.
Thus, I wanted to share how the meeting with Mr Thomas Manhart went. He was totally not what i expected a successful, self-sustained, established german musician to be. In many ways he was really a quirky character. I really laughed hard when he attempted to speak singlish with all the 'la' s and the 'hello uncle' s. He was really understanding and sympathetic to my situation but he constantly reminded me that i'm skinny -.- lol.
as with everything, there are the pros and the cons, like those he saw in me. He told me i need to connect more with my voice and my body, and he also said that I have a fighting spirit that is very convincing (YAY!). The main purpose of me meeting with him was to be able to become his student, and i have successfully achieved it. He's willing to take me! What a milestone indeed. I thank God really for letting this happen.
I have lots of work to do now, and Mr Manhart has asked me to cut back on my online time. He said "there goes your life but here starts a new one." Lol. That means less blogging i guess.
cheers, aj.
Thus, I wanted to share how the meeting with Mr Thomas Manhart went. He was totally not what i expected a successful, self-sustained, established german musician to be. In many ways he was really a quirky character. I really laughed hard when he attempted to speak singlish with all the 'la' s and the 'hello uncle' s. He was really understanding and sympathetic to my situation but he constantly reminded me that i'm skinny -.- lol.
as with everything, there are the pros and the cons, like those he saw in me. He told me i need to connect more with my voice and my body, and he also said that I have a fighting spirit that is very convincing (YAY!). The main purpose of me meeting with him was to be able to become his student, and i have successfully achieved it. He's willing to take me! What a milestone indeed. I thank God really for letting this happen.
I have lots of work to do now, and Mr Manhart has asked me to cut back on my online time. He said "there goes your life but here starts a new one." Lol. That means less blogging i guess.
cheers, aj.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Homophobia.
YouTube is very enlightening sometimes. I took the day off today and went surfing (the net, that is) and though some videos i saw were emotionally moving, others were appalling. Of those that shocked me the most are comments that people post on videos; homophobic, judgemental, discriminative comments.
Yeah, you can find plenty of 'gay' videos on YouTube and while it is fairly easy to dismiss them as "wrong" or "evil" or even "pervertic", it is not easy to understand why one would make such judgements. If you ask me, people like this are just homophobes who are afraid to accept gay people (because every gay person is a pervert and can and will take any means to touch/grope/rape you, you see. plus it's also contagious, so you can catch 'gay' by interacting with one! pfft! [sarcasm])
Now it really puzzles me why people have to be afraid of 'gay' people. Maybe it's because of the pre-conceptions they have? I dunno, you tell me. They always said "man fears that which he does not understand," could that be a reason too? that they dont understand?
What's there to understand? If you are human you will understand how it is to feel attracted to another person, to fall in love once in a while and to want to be loved and not be lonely. Like hello, homosexuals have relationships just like hetrosexuals do. It's not like once you're gay you're a slave to your hormones and have urges to hump every other guy you see lol.
so for those of you who are homophobic, you tell me, what makes you so afraid of homosexuals? What is so different about homosexuals that you have to be so afraid of them? But before you go hating, discriminating, alienating, judging them, just remember they're humans just like you who have emotions just like you. Would it be nice to hurt someone's feelings? =P
Don't punish them with your opinions, actions or words. Hey, when has God punished a man for being gay? If God Almighty himself don't do that, what right would you have? =P
take it from me - being gay is no different from being straight, except that you like someone of the same sex (that's not a very big difference). You don't have to be afraid, cuz your not gonna 'catch it' AND WE'RE NOT GONNA EAT YOU. So stop running and accept us for who we are. It's easier to love someone your whole life than to waste your efforts hating him.
p.s. if you ask me if i'm gay, i'll call you an ignorant dinosaur and smack you. =P
Yeah, you can find plenty of 'gay' videos on YouTube and while it is fairly easy to dismiss them as "wrong" or "evil" or even "pervertic", it is not easy to understand why one would make such judgements. If you ask me, people like this are just homophobes who are afraid to accept gay people (because every gay person is a pervert and can and will take any means to touch/grope/rape you, you see. plus it's also contagious, so you can catch 'gay' by interacting with one! pfft! [sarcasm])
Now it really puzzles me why people have to be afraid of 'gay' people. Maybe it's because of the pre-conceptions they have? I dunno, you tell me. They always said "man fears that which he does not understand," could that be a reason too? that they dont understand?
What's there to understand? If you are human you will understand how it is to feel attracted to another person, to fall in love once in a while and to want to be loved and not be lonely. Like hello, homosexuals have relationships just like hetrosexuals do. It's not like once you're gay you're a slave to your hormones and have urges to hump every other guy you see lol.
so for those of you who are homophobic, you tell me, what makes you so afraid of homosexuals? What is so different about homosexuals that you have to be so afraid of them? But before you go hating, discriminating, alienating, judging them, just remember they're humans just like you who have emotions just like you. Would it be nice to hurt someone's feelings? =P
Don't punish them with your opinions, actions or words. Hey, when has God punished a man for being gay? If God Almighty himself don't do that, what right would you have? =P
take it from me - being gay is no different from being straight, except that you like someone of the same sex (that's not a very big difference). You don't have to be afraid, cuz your not gonna 'catch it' AND WE'RE NOT GONNA EAT YOU. So stop running and accept us for who we are. It's easier to love someone your whole life than to waste your efforts hating him.
p.s. if you ask me if i'm gay, i'll call you an ignorant dinosaur and smack you. =P
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Peter & Ben
i was browsing through YouTube and found this video under "recommended for you". It's a touching story of two 'black-sheep' forming a bond. It really made me go "awwwwwwww......."
Dir: Pinny Grylls / UK / 2007
Peter and Ben is a touching and quirky story of how two "black-sheep" form an unusual and enduring bond.
Best Documentary - Aspen Shorts Fest 2008
Screened at London Film Festival 2007 & Clermont Ferrand Short Film Festival 2008
www.invisiblefilms.co.uk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JFTGBmX19VQ
Dir: Pinny Grylls / UK / 2007
Peter and Ben is a touching and quirky story of how two "black-sheep" form an unusual and enduring bond.
Best Documentary - Aspen Shorts Fest 2008
Screened at London Film Festival 2007 & Clermont Ferrand Short Film Festival 2008
www.invisiblefilms.co.uk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JFTGBmX19VQ
Thursday, October 2, 2008
100 questions.
Imma victim just like the 8 of you will be. Bare with me ><
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those that are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state the person they are tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.
The 8 victims; (i'm just sticking to 6 cuz i cant think of anymore lol)
Nelson
Marr
Kim Yong
JOEY !
Yana
Haikel
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those that are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state the person they are tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.
The 8 victims; (i'm just sticking to 6 cuz i cant think of anymore lol)
Nelson
Marr
Kim Yong
JOEY !
Yana
Haikel
1. What have you been doing recently?
Practicing lots.
2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
It turns of by itself whether I want it to or not. Lol.
3. What happened at 10.00 am today?
Sleeping – dreaming of Kim. =P
4. When did u last cry?
I dunno, maybe it was one-two months ago?
5. Believe in fate/destiny?
Yeah. I do.
6. What do you want in your life right now?
A boyfriend and good ‘O’ level results. Lol.
7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just pop up your hood?
If im carrying an umbrella, I use it. If I’m wearing a hoodie, I just pop it up.
8. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
My someone special.
9. What bottom are you wearing right now?
A pair of shorts I’ve had since forever.
10. What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
“I love you too… Haha… Bye”
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
I’ve never had one, so I wouldn’t know.
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
I’m wearing underwear someone GAVE me.
13 What was the last movie you caught?
Wall-E.
14. What are u proud of?
Being able to accept who I am. It makes me mature.
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
“I love you too… Haha.. Bye”
16. What was the last song you sang about?
It was about Christ’s birth.
17. Do you have any nicknames?
Most people call me A.J. but people call me Ajmao, ah-ji-mao, stick-insect, anorexic and my bro calls me ‘four-eyed freak ass’
18. What does your last received text message say?
“Ni sape?” (who’s this?)
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
1 a.m. I believe.
20. Are you currently happy?
I’m always happy ^^
21. Who gives you best advice?
God and mom.
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
I’ve tried it, but don’t do it regularly.
23. Who did you talk to on the phone last night?
I didn’t.
24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Something always is =/
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
YouTube
26. Do you wear toe socks?
I’ve never owned a pair before.
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Mom.
28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Like a million times.
29. What annoys you most in a person?
A big ego and a loudmouth.
30. Do you have a crush on someone?
Yeah. I do.
31. Have you ever done cocaine?
Haha. I couldn’t even if I wanted to. =P
32. What is the color of your room?
It’s white. As are all the rooms in the house.
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
Not even for 2 billion dollars.
34. Do you believe in the saying ‘talk is cheap’?
What’s there to believe?
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Me, unfortunately. =P
36. Who was the last person to hug you?
I have no idea. Lol.
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
Nope.
38. Do you have a life
I’m alive aint I, so yeah course I do!
39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn’t?
Erm, maybe in my dreams.
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
What profile song? O.O
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Kim – go figure!
42. Last time you smiled?
When someone told me I had to do this quiz – I haven’t smiled since then.
43. Have you changed this year?
Without a shadow of a doubt.
44. What are you listening to right now?
The sound of my CPU fans running.
45. Are you talking to someone when you’re doing this?
Yeah. Matt and Joey you guys are guilty.
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
They’re always open, cept for the occasional blink.
47. Is there a quote you live by?
Several, but I don’t live by them, merely acknowledge them.
48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
Oh yeah! David Archuleta! LOL
49. Have you ever played an instrument?
I am playing one now.
50. What was the worst idea you’ve had in this week?
I don’t believe in bad ideas – all ideas are good for something.
51. What were you doing last night at 11 pm?
Still dreaming about Kim. Lol.
52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
I don’t have no love life right now.
53. What song best describes your love life?
A song that about being single.
54. Does the person know you like him/her?
I don’t think so, but who knows!
55. Who always makes you laugh?
Kim Yong. That I’m sure.
56. Do you speak languages other than English?
I guess I can speak in Malay… I think.
57. Favourite website(s)?
Its-aj.blogspot.com, orangeshark.com, youtube.com and the rest are my special websites that no one should know about lol ^^
58. What’s your middle name?
Don’t have one.
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
Lotsa things.
60. What do you think you are like?
Like a rose among thorns LOL
61. Who will you chose to die with?
No one. I don’t wanna have to compete to go to heaven. LOL I’m kidding.
62. Where have you been today?
The toilet and the sofa. What about you?
63. What game do you play often?
Online pool? I dunno.
64. Who are you missing right now?
I miss Kurt.
65. If you have to chose between a friend and a love, who will you chose?
Who says the person I love wont be my friend? Ha! Lol.
66. What are you doing right now?
Answering this quiz and yawning.
67. Which primary school are you from?
Why you wanna know? Heh. Bendemeer Primary.
68. Name 3 colors that you like.
Purple, Blue, Red?
69. What emotion you like to show?
I only hide sadness, I show all else. Lol.
70. What is your life to you?
My life is so large and miraculous, words simply cannot express its magnitude.
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Find a way to solve/get rid of it.
72. Who did you last chat with on MSN today?
Joey.
73. Who do you admire the most?
My mom, most of the time.
74. Which month are you born in?
Another redundant question, but September.
75. How are you feeling right now?
Pretty tired I guess.
76. What time is it now?
Its 1:20 am. Why am I still awake??
77. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
A very sociable person and a great friend. =)
78. What color did you use to dye your hair?
I didn’t.
79. Why are you doing this test?
I needed something to post about anyways. Lol.
80. What do you do when you’re moody?
Take a walk and clear my mind.
81. At what age do you want to get married?
If same-sex marriage were legal, I’d get married around 30.
82. Who is most important to you?
God.
83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
Scream and run around in circles because I haven’t passed my maths yet and I cant die! Lol.
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
God.
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Always.
86. If you could have a dream come true, what would it be?
To live a life free from financial strain and one of happiness.
87. What is your goal for this year?
PASS MATHS!
88. Do you believe in eternity love?
Eternal love you mean. And yeah, I do – God’s love is eternal.
89. What feeling do you love most?
I love to love. Lol.
90. Do you really think its global warming now?
What’s there to think? It’s proven that it exists right?
91. What feeling do you hate the most?
I hate feeling alone and having no one to turn to.
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Not every single one, but I do cherish the ones I see as important.
93. Do you believe in God?
Yeah.
94. Who cares for you the most?
God does.
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
The relationships I form with people and God.
96. What will you bring when you fight?
A banner saying “violence never solved anything”
97. What have you regretted doing in your life?
Nothing. I don’t live with regrets.
98. What would you feel, if no one cared for you any longer?
I’d feel alone and ostracized.
99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
I’d ask him why and work things out.
100. HOW DO YOU FEEL NOW?
Kinda tired now that I’ve finished 100 random questions.
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